The Just Incase Plan

"Do you get nervous/worry about Josh since he is a cop?"

I get that question a lot.
I can honestly say - No, not really.

I mean, yes, I know his job is dangerous.
Yes, I know that he faces high risk situations everyday.
Just putting on his uniform and getting in a police car could put his life on the line.

However, I really don't worry about him.

1st of all - I trust him. I know he is smart and will make wise choices.

2nd - I know that he is a good cop. He has had a high level of training and has had a lot of experiences and learning opportunities.

3rd - I know that he will do whatever he can to come home to Alyse and I.

4th - I know that he loves his job, and since I love him, I have to support him.

5th - I can't live in fear!!!! I know that there are many wives/girlfriends/husbands/parents who always are expecting the phone to ring or a knock at the door. I have read a few blogs, websites, and even had people tell me that every time their love one walks out the door, they think "This could be the last time I see him." or "What would happen if my children didn't have a father anymore?"..... I can not do that to myself! I also can't do that to him or Alyse!

6th (and most importantly) - I trust in God. I know that he is going to take care of Josh and watch over him while he is at work. I also know that if anything ever did happen, He would take care of me.

Now would I be DEVASTATED if anything ever happened to Josh - OH YES! My heart hurts just thinking about anything ever happening to him, but like I said, I can't focus on that. My job as Josh's wife is to love and encourage him. Not to stress and worry about "what ifs".

One thing that Josh and I have talked about many times is that just like he has to prepare himself that he may some day be in a shooting situation (for example) I also need to prepare for that.

We have already come up with somewhat of a plan - because I am a planner.

If anything does happen to him, I have already told him that I don't really want to hear from a stranger. We even told two of his good friends, Sean and Matt, that if something does happen, I would prefer to hear from one of them. (Now, I don't know if that is actually possible, but they both said that they would do their best to make sure that they at least would be there for me.)

I also have a friends and family list. This is the list of people who would need to be notified. It isn't a very long list, but it is of people that I know would need to know so they could pray and be there to support me.

I already have childcare lined up.

We also have somewhat of a plan of what would happen if I needed to plan a funeral, where important papers are, insurance things that I need to be aware of, etc.

You may be thinking, why in the world is she PLANNING for this?!
Honestly, I know that I will be doing everything I can just to hold it together. So, I know the decisions would most likely overwhelm me.

Obviously, I hope and pray that I will never need to put this plan into action! But I think it is for the best that we are prepared.

The other way that I can best prepare myself is to hold Josh closer when he is home, making sure that I tell him I love him multiple times a day, always kissing him goodbye, and praying for him each and every day.

***Side Note***
This post totally turned on me.
I started to tell y'all a police story, and totally derailed!
But hopefully this was helpful to someone else.
Even if your husband doesn't put a uniform on everyday, I still think it is a good idea to do everything in that last paragraph.

I will save the story for another day and another post.