I will bring praise

For about 8 months Josh and I had been "trying" for a baby. I know that for some people that is a very short length of time, but I was starting to get discouraged. This song was my comfort.

I have decided I have resolved
To wait upon you Lord
My rock and redeemer shall not be moved
I'll wait upon you Lord

As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears

You'll come let your glory fall
As you respond to us
Spirit reign flood our hearts
With holy fire again

We are not shaken we are not moved
We wait upon you Lord
Our Mighty deliverer my triumph and truth
I'll wait upon you Lord

Chains be broken
Lives be healed
Eyes be opened
Christ is revealed

July 2009- I left the doctor's office and went to my car. I called my mom and told her that yes, I had lost the baby. I sat in that parking garage and cried. Once I pulled myself together I started the car to drive home. As I drove down the road this song started to play.

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow


I cried again! Hard!

I didn't know that a few weeks later, I would be pregnant again and that God had a victory instore for Josh and I.

Fast forward.

The past 2 weekends we have sang both of these songs at church. And I don't think that was just by chance...

Both times I have stood there in the front row with tears rolling down my cheeks. Both times I've stood there will a huge pregnant belly realizing that God did come and even though there was an unexpected battle, triumph was on it's way and now the harvest is here.

And I will bring praise!